Kiszállok

Mint tágra zárt két kicsiny szem,
Úgy figyelem, hogy esik szét minden.
Bőgnek a harangok az ocsmány,
Szívemnek vélt valami csonkján,
Ami persze hőn érzett,
De pocsolyába fúlt végzet lett
Az ő érdeme.
Hogy értem-e?
Lábujjam hegye s végtagjaim
Röhögve kísérik végnapjaim
Fel egy szent hegy ormára, ahol
Az összes rohadt áldozat meglakol
Aki a büszke és telhetetlen medve
Nyáltól nyúló, odvas fogát nem vette
Eléggé szemügyre.
Mert a vész ólálkodik, szimatol.
Minden félénket, véznát kiszagol.
A tanácsom az, bátran előre néző,
szaruhártyádat nem kímélő:
Változz kővé, vagy áldozd fel magad,
Mielőtt a vad elragad.

for my friend

 

Dönt

Tanuld meg, hogy nem leszel több,
mint egy üres tégely, mit teleönt
a bárgyúk mosolya,
a söntés korsója,
a döntés kételye,
a lusták kényelme,
a haragvók rőt szeme,
a börtönrács retesze,
a feleség ölebe,
a szerető hű öle,
s mégis porzik az alja.
Te vagy az alja.

Vagy szeretjük magunk?
Ez esetben a feleség hű ölébe
börtönözted ölebed,
hálát adtál, hogy a
söntés koporsója
a haragvók kényelmének
bárgyú székhelye.
A döntés tégely-e?

This is a song from the movie Eat, Pray, Love with Julia Roberts, my favourite actress. I would like to recommend this film to everyone who would like to think and dive deeper in their lives to find themselves. The film meant two major thoughts to me: compromise is indispensable, but opportunism is not compromise.

take a step

It all started with an advertisement on a website dealing with job offers.
I had been looking for a job for a while, because I felt that I should help my family's budget, since I was the one who "consumed" the most. Living in another city as a student is quite demanding for the parents in financial terms. My father and mother support me willingly, and they would like to ensure everything for me to start a successfull life, but I often feel that they don't even care for themself just to help me. So I decided to find a job and try to support myself and surprise them, though I know that I will never be able to give back the tenth of what I've got.
So the job is about insurance, I am ready for taking my carreer into my own hand, the aim is given. The first steps are the exams. I am ready.

6 feet higher

Oh My God...that was my first reaction to the music of Dub.FX.
Benjamin Stanford was born in Melbourne, Australia and started his career just like his many other fellow street artists. Singing for himself, then for the lucky audience of the street, he became one of the most listened performers of Youtube. (His song "Love Someone" was listened to over 4,000,000 times).
His magic lies not merely in the music itself, but in the way he creates it. That is, everything he does is live music, all the sounds, vocals and beats are made by the man himself. These are controlled with effect pedals and are recorded by a technique called real-time looping. His style covers D'n'B, hiphop, electric and reggae elements.
By now, his talent carried him to the most prestigeous festivals all over the World. One of these was last weekend's Fridge Festival of Budapest which I could attend fortunately, and I must say, this was a great choice. Dub.FX held a performance I will remember for long. He was the same humble and honest man I got to know from his videos recorded on the streets. Benjamin does not have star manners but the manners of making his audience enjoy music. By his devotion, he got six feet higher: from the street to the stage.
What is the lesson to learn? For me absolutely this: if you stay honest, devoted and subservient towards the thing you do, you will get appreciation and love without asking for it.

virtual world

I always wonder why people tend to enjoy the virtual life offered by video games more than their real ones.
Now it is a global phenomenon that children get acquainted with the computer quite early in their evolutionary process. So one may think this is the lunacy of the youth, but the surprising fact is that the average age of players is 32. According to some statistics of an online educational website video games are played in 65% of households in the USA. In my opinion this is rather terrifying.
In my childhood the common way of playing and entertainment was to meet friends and do some hide-and-seek or play with the ball in the garden. If my parents wanted me to develop my logic and methodical or combinational skills they would give me some Lego or building cubes. Nowadays children spend the majority of their free time indoors. I believe that formation of creative skills will fade away with the infringement of virtual worlds. You get the ready-made commands, goals and circumstances...you don't even have to think. You don't have to take responsibility, because games offer the possibility of saving. So if you fail, well, let's turn back time and do it once again. I admit that this is quite comfortable. But what about real life? Now it is said everywhere that teachers and TV programmes have to fascinate children, otherwise they get bored . This becomes a vicious circle which is rather hard to quit....not to mention the disadvantageous effects on children's psyche.