This is a song from the movie Eat, Pray, Love with Julia Roberts, my favourite actress. I would like to recommend this film to everyone who would like to think and dive deeper in their lives to find themselves. The film meant two major thoughts to me: compromise is indispensable, but opportunism is not compromise.

take a step

It all started with an advertisement on a website dealing with job offers.
I had been looking for a job for a while, because I felt that I should help my family's budget, since I was the one who "consumed" the most. Living in another city as a student is quite demanding for the parents in financial terms. My father and mother support me willingly, and they would like to ensure everything for me to start a successfull life, but I often feel that they don't even care for themself just to help me. So I decided to find a job and try to support myself and surprise them, though I know that I will never be able to give back the tenth of what I've got.
So the job is about insurance, I am ready for taking my carreer into my own hand, the aim is given. The first steps are the exams. I am ready.

6 feet higher

Oh My God...that was my first reaction to the music of Dub.FX.
Benjamin Stanford was born in Melbourne, Australia and started his career just like his many other fellow street artists. Singing for himself, then for the lucky audience of the street, he became one of the most listened performers of Youtube. (His song "Love Someone" was listened to over 4,000,000 times).
His magic lies not merely in the music itself, but in the way he creates it. That is, everything he does is live music, all the sounds, vocals and beats are made by the man himself. These are controlled with effect pedals and are recorded by a technique called real-time looping. His style covers D'n'B, hiphop, electric and reggae elements.
By now, his talent carried him to the most prestigeous festivals all over the World. One of these was last weekend's Fridge Festival of Budapest which I could attend fortunately, and I must say, this was a great choice. Dub.FX held a performance I will remember for long. He was the same humble and honest man I got to know from his videos recorded on the streets. Benjamin does not have star manners but the manners of making his audience enjoy music. By his devotion, he got six feet higher: from the street to the stage.
What is the lesson to learn? For me absolutely this: if you stay honest, devoted and subservient towards the thing you do, you will get appreciation and love without asking for it.

virtual world

I always wonder why people tend to enjoy the virtual life offered by video games more than their real ones.
Now it is a global phenomenon that children get acquainted with the computer quite early in their evolutionary process. So one may think this is the lunacy of the youth, but the surprising fact is that the average age of players is 32. According to some statistics of an online educational website video games are played in 65% of households in the USA. In my opinion this is rather terrifying.
In my childhood the common way of playing and entertainment was to meet friends and do some hide-and-seek or play with the ball in the garden. If my parents wanted me to develop my logic and methodical or combinational skills they would give me some Lego or building cubes. Nowadays children spend the majority of their free time indoors. I believe that formation of creative skills will fade away with the infringement of virtual worlds. You get the ready-made commands, goals and circumstances...you don't even have to think. You don't have to take responsibility, because games offer the possibility of saving. So if you fail, well, let's turn back time and do it once again. I admit that this is quite comfortable. But what about real life? Now it is said everywhere that teachers and TV programmes have to fascinate children, otherwise they get bored . This becomes a vicious circle which is rather hard to quit....not to mention the disadvantageous effects on children's psyche.

a thought

Yesterday we met some of my friends to spend a superb dinner together. The plan was the following: dinner at 7 p.m. then board gaming till night. We enjoyed the company of each other had a great meal and a good time. Good friends are worth their weight in gold, as they say. However, these moments are not for realizing the value of a friendship. But the lack of them.

a translation of my taste

I like poetry. I had my own poems as it used to be. But I never loved my own poetry. So I decided to translate others'. Here is one that I think may work well.

The original Charles Bukowski piece:

here I am ...
drunk again at 3 a.m. at the end of my 2nd bottle
of wine, I have typed from a dozen to 15 pages of
poesy
an old man
maddened for the flesh of young girls in this
dwindling twilight
liver gone
kidneys going
pancrea pooped
top-floor blood pressure
while all the fear of the wasted years
laughs between my toes
no woman will live with me
no Florence Nightingale to watch the
Johnny Carson show with
if I have a stroke I will lay here for six
days, my three cats hungrily ripping the flesh
from my elbows, wrists, head
the radio playing classical music ...
I promised myself never to write old man poems
but this one's funny, you see, excusable, be-
cause I've long gone past using myself and there's
still more left
here at 3 a.m. I am going to take this sheet from
the typer
pour another glass and
insert
make love to the fresh new whiteness
maybe get lucky
again
first for
me
later
for you.
from "All's Normal Here" - 1985

an here comes my version:

hát itt vagyok…
megint részegen éjjel háromkor a második borosüveg alját nézve
és tizenkét, vagy akár tizenöt oldal is tele versekkel
a vénember
akit a fiatal lányok húsa hoz izgalomba
ebben a félidős félhomályban
a máj oda
a vesék is lassan
hasnyálmirigyek kifingtak
vérnyomás a plafonon

míg az elpazarolt évek rettegése
a lábujjaim között vihog
egy nőnek se kellek
nincs Florence Nightingale akivel jó
egy Johhny Carson show

ha szélütést kapok, hat napig fogok itt feküdni,
a három macska meg éhesen szaggatja majd a húst
a könyökömről, a csuklómról, az arcomról

a rádióban komolyzene…

megfogadtam, hogy soha nem írok vénemberes verset
de ez vicces, értik…megbocsátható, mert
én már rég kizsigereltem magam de
még azért van bennem
így hajnali háromkor, kiveszem majd ezt a papírt
a gépből és
öntök még egy pohárral, aztán
újratölt
és tiszta lappal szeretkezem

talán szerencsével járhatok
megint

először értem

később…
érted is.

Impro/fessional writing

Incredible! How much joy and enthusiasm an early Autumn afternoon can bring. The wine-red leaves of trees prepairing for a long sleep and the red scarves of women walking in the park. These pictures grabbed me and held me tight while I was sitting on a bench in one of the liveliest parks of Pécs. I was enjoying the smell of the Autumn breeze, the laughter of children, the lovers' first kiss and the sweet but ambivalent touch of the wind of change. All of a sudden, harsh yelling broke this harmony. A dog was rushing through the place, surely to his destruction, because he left a man seriusly injured behind.
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I was sitting on a bench in one of the the parks of Pécs. It was a lovely Autumn afternoon, and quite comforting, I can tell. Bunches of people surrounded me, talking, kissing and laughing. But I felt strange. Suddenly, a dog rushed through the park leaving yelling people and a man seriously injured behind.
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I am constantly getting acqainted with two books on writing. The first is William Zinsser's On Writing Well, the second one is Bruce Garrison's Professional Feature Writing. What I've found interesting and thought-provoking while reading them was that there were a lot more things to be cautious with about writing than I had ever thought. A colon, a period, a that or a which can easily be factors of failure.
I wrote these two paragraphs above in order to reflect my own understanding of the two viewpoints. The first one was intended to represent some kind of feature writing according to Garrison's ideas, while the second one introduces writing nonfiction. To be honest, I'm for the second type of writing. I find it honest and frank. The thoughts I rank the highest about the differences between nonfiction and feature writing I would like to quote from the book of Zinsser's: "The assumption is that fact and color are two separate ingredients. They're not; color is organic to the fact. Your job is to present the colorful fact".

restart

Well, the blog opens once again to function as a thoughtbook for Joe's lesson. :)